adventurer. (La Push, WA)

(lyrics from Addison Road 'What do I know of Holy?'

i'm not usually the first person to say 'i want to get out of the house. let's just drive and drive and see where we end up.'

i'm more comfortable in my own setting, knowing my surroundings, knowing what's coming next.

this is why as i stood at the shore of the Pacific on la push beach, a hunger for adventure was awakened within me.

see, going to forks, wa was on our agenda while on our trip.

i wouldn't say we're avid twilight fans, but we've seen the movies and was curious to check out the place.

little did i know what a loooooong trip it would be. it was an all day adventure. halfway there, i was regretting the decision and wanted to turn back, but it'd be silly so we kept going.

all the while my 'homebody' mentality grumbled under my breath.

when we arrived, and i looked out, it hit me.

there is so much out there. standing there in a small beach on the most northwestern corner of our country, facing a majestic ocean, i was enamored by it all.

sure i've been to the beach. but this was somehow different.

it may have been the serenity that drew me in.

the history behind it.

the soothing yet roaring waves of the water.

i left a piece of my heart in that place, because it's where the adventurer in me was brought to life.

so the question remained in me for the next couple of days:

where do i need to travel, what kind of adventure must i go on next?

and i felt defeated because unless i quit my job, leave my children with a full time nanny, and pull out all my savings, i wouldn't be traveling all over the world to feed my hunger for adventure anytime soon. and my heart sank.

but here's the thing i somehow realized:

my life itself can be lived out as an adventure.

i see what's in front of me and sometimes see no possibility, while God sees a great adventure ahead.

His plans, His dreams for me are far beyond what I can imagine.

maybe it doesn't involve flights, luggage and sightseeing.

maybe it just involves living my life as if it were the last day, giving Him glory every minute.

because while i think i have everything figured out, and while i think there is nothing more than my daily routine, God has something bigger.

He's the one that tells that ocean where to stop. He will tell me where to go.

He's my captain, and i must remember to let him steer. While he's at the wheel, i will be used for the greatest work of all. He will be the one to open doors for me that i think don't even exist. He is my guide in this great adventure of life and i must remember that when i feel like nothing has been accomplished.

so here i am, waiting and keeping my eyes peeled for what's coming next.

no doubt, whatever it is, it will be great.