i like happy.

there was a time in my life, not too long ago either, where anything could bring me down.
many, many nights i would cry buckets over my feelings being hurt, the past that hounded me and little things that stole my joy. it was a rocky season in my life that not only impacted me, but those around me including my marriage and my children.

And the only thing I had left after all the crying, was a massive pounding headache, puffy eyes and many tears lost and Advil was getting lots of my money. it was a season of lots of pain, lots of stress but in it all, i learned something.

i like happy.

I learned that I actually like being able to face problems in the face and tell them they won't shake me. i like being able to take a hold of God's hand and know that even when the flames are around me, i won't be burned. i like knowing that even when i'm in the pit of darkness that wants to devour me, my God will save me from it.

i like smiling. i like laughing. i like dreaming.

and that's exactly what was intended for us. His word says we have not been given a spirit of timidness or fear, but of courage. And i am holding on to that promise.


Lately, those feelings of fear and sadness seem to be taunting me and i know it's because of the plans and dreams that God has placed in my heart that the enemy wants to steal. But if i feed into them, my whole day, the people around me and my heart is just gloomy.

I am so not a morning person and i will hit that snooze button like there's no tomorrow, however, i know that my days must start with Him, with positive thoughts, with being thankful. It makes a world of difference! and i need a world of difference to keep me on my happy trail.

even if it's 10 minutes, enough to make a list of what I'm thankful for, what I love and because I am loved and to thank Him for being an ever constant faithful God on my side.

because i like happy.