measuring His love.

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if you have kiddos or even have been around kiddos, i'm sure a time or two, those kiddos have given you the guilt trip of not loving them enough because they don't have the same amount of toys as their friends or something like that. just mine? okay then.

well of course they understand that i love them more than they could ever imagine, but for a moment, in their minds they deserve more than they have. and when they question why they don't have what they think they deserve, the underlying question of whether we love them enough arises for a second or two.

what a painful question, is it not? yet i've asked God that same question.

during this season of drought with our family, it's been rough. there have been lots of tears, mainly on my part. there have been lots of questions. and in the most weakest moments, i've asked the Lord why His favor and love was not showering upon us.
in a nutshell, why didn't He love us enough to answer our prayers.

God and I have talked it out. don't worry, i won't be banned to time out forever.

i came to realize, of course, with His wisdom that when i measure His love with the situation at hand, His love not only becomes measurable, but very small indeed.
because the situation in His hands it's just that, small indeed.
instead of just using the present situation as my measuring rod, i need to grab hold of what the Lord will do with it all. so i look at His outstretched arms when He gave it all for us.

all because when His arms were extended and His life was given, hope was given unto our lives as well. hope not only for salvation, but hope in knowing we don't have to walk alone. we don't have to do this alone.

therefore, i cling to that hope that things are not finished. things are still being molded, refined, ironed out to perfection.
and if the God of the universe, the God that orchestrates all things, has enough interest to work in my life and bring things to perfection, while i completely do not deserve any of it, then i can only determine it is out of an undying, relentless, immeasurable love. one that can't be meaured by things that are fleeting, as He is eternal. a love that reaches to the heavens and it's deeper than the oceans. (psalm37:7)

a love that i won't truly being able to comprehend in this life. but one that i am so eternally thankful for. can't wait for the day, i'll get to run up to my Jesus, wrap my arms around him and tell Him how much i love Him too.

my prayer is that we would all be able to see His infite love in the midst of trials.